Now that i am of sound mind
October 21, 2003
A little explaination into yesterday’s outburst. Where i work i normally sit on my ass and just monitor stuff until it breaks. When that happens i have to either fix it or call out to people who can fix it. So for awhile i been trying to get in on some extra projects to learn more about other systems, plus to give me something to do so i am not bored. I might have mentioned a few times some of the projects i been doing from time to time. Well what happened was i got pulled from all my current projects and i am not allowed to take on anymore. Their reasoning is because of “performence issues”, i say its bullshit. What happened i forgot to check a count on a job that was running, and it came up wrong. Now before we never really had to check it and no one really made a big stink about it till now. So now i got smacked hard because of it, i know i screwed up and i am only human. The thing that pisses me off the most is that we have people in my department who have messed up on a consistant basis and nothing ever happens to them. Meanwhile i do all this extra stuff and never have a problem, until this one incident. We are talking mistakes bigger then this that has cost the company money. But nothing ever happens to them, instead i have one slip up and i am public enemy #1. So for now on i am not going to bother putting forth the extra effort to do anything extra at work, they have effectivly killed that. I’m just going to go in, do my job and if i get bored, i’ll work on my own personal non-work related projects that will hopefully land me in a better place then this.
